fail.

i fail at updating this.


more so...i fail at quite a few other things...

-motivating myself in spite of my laziness, fatigue, etc.

-getting easy assignments done early.

-making time for other people. (i get so anxious i make time for myself and i forget others).

-reminding myself that I'm important to someone even if i'm neglected by others).

-budgeting. T.T

-thinking just far enough ahead that I don't freak out.

-coming up with a better plan.

-remembering that most plans fall through.

-picking up my phone.

-paying my bills.



ok now that's out of the way. some thing's i've started to do right:

-stay at home to recover from being sick, not using the time to do other stupid things.

-bought food so i can eat from home not from anywhere else.

-started to clean my room. (it needs work)

-started to try to make plans for postgrad life.

-owning up to the mistakes i've made financially.

-facing up to my parent's expectations of me.

-making myself more open to people. (never mind that few seem to take the intiative i present them [i guess i'm still 'unapproachable'] but oh well there's only so much i can do about my situation with other people, they have to do some work to and i can tell when people are lazy/comfortable).

-seeing all the areas I need to work on.




I'm not perfect but I'm trying to be a good person.

"The best way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing." -Walt Disney


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