I was just being nostalgic and thinking about how this senior year feels for me as compared to my high school senior year and I just realized that there are a few loose ends still out there that are bugging me. Some of these hurts, I've been told to just let go of, to just suck it up and move on. But I've never really believed that it's ok or possible to just leave situations like that alone and unresolved. I feel at a loss for words for how I feel about these things, but it's starting to feel like it's time to just make things right. So that before I move on from this stage, I can at least feel full resolution from things that should have been solved long ago.
Now it's all very well and easy to say this but I'm not quite sure how to go about it. Some people will not be reasoned with, and let's face it, when you're being totally ignored by someone it's harder still to convince them that you just want to talk or you just want to change things from so called "bad" terms to at least neutral ones. i'm not asking for a full on bestfriendshipohmygodcallmeeverydayok sort of thing, I just want things to be cool between me and some people.
I hope I can find ways to gain some resolution in these matters because I've tried the whole give it time thing, and it hasn't worked. The holes I feel are still there.
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