i've come to realize how pointless it all is.
and yet my one ray of happiness shines through.
good stuff.
back to life, back to reality.
Amazing how time flies by and into your hands the world falls. All around you cascading rhythms of life are beating. Pulsing. Begging you to join in with them. But which one do you pick?
Which path do you choose?
and in the end, who will be there beside you?
<3bam
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
off to a rough start...
this weekend is going to be awesome, it's just off to a rough start. more on that later.
stuff that i need to update on:
-picking up a lil
-new camera
-workshops
-hair ideas
-sick time
-work
(so I don't forget what I wanted to write about later)
well I'm in lab right now waiting to take a quiz that probably won't even take that long to take, like honestly, this class is a waste. oh well. I shall see you on the other side of a beautiful weekend.
<3samBAM
stuff that i need to update on:
-picking up a lil
-new camera
-workshops
-hair ideas
-sick time
-work
(so I don't forget what I wanted to write about later)
well I'm in lab right now waiting to take a quiz that probably won't even take that long to take, like honestly, this class is a waste. oh well. I shall see you on the other side of a beautiful weekend.
<3samBAM
Monday, October 6, 2008
the arguments one has with oneself...
When you're sitting there with that puzzled look on your face, and there's not a sound to be heard in your general vicinity we all know what you're doing. Confusing yourself so that you'll have something to think about for the next few minutes of your life. Breaking down your world so that you have something to build up again. You can sit there and argue and discuss all you like but where do you really end up?
I wonder sometimes if it's worth it to question myself and to question what I've believed in. Do I really end up moving on? Do I push myself further back? No idea. I like to believe that I move forward in my thoughts but you never know if you really get somewhere.
I keep thinking about the same things over and over these days and I suppose this blog is meant to recognize that. I don't think I want to publish those things but I think that it's interesting to look at how I've been analyzing my life.
Most of the time I'm thinking about these select few things without pause. I wonder why I feel certain things about these topics and wonder if I can deal with the root of these feelings rather than just the symptoms. We shall see though.
It's all very confuddled in my head...and I know this makes little to no sense but then again when does the world ever come at us with a whole page of information filled from top to bottom.
I lost my train of thought...oh well. back to this idea later...
<3bam
I wonder sometimes if it's worth it to question myself and to question what I've believed in. Do I really end up moving on? Do I push myself further back? No idea. I like to believe that I move forward in my thoughts but you never know if you really get somewhere.
I keep thinking about the same things over and over these days and I suppose this blog is meant to recognize that. I don't think I want to publish those things but I think that it's interesting to look at how I've been analyzing my life.
Most of the time I'm thinking about these select few things without pause. I wonder why I feel certain things about these topics and wonder if I can deal with the root of these feelings rather than just the symptoms. We shall see though.
It's all very confuddled in my head...and I know this makes little to no sense but then again when does the world ever come at us with a whole page of information filled from top to bottom.
I lost my train of thought...oh well. back to this idea later...
<3bam